May 11th, 2017

​I know where you've gone.
​I know why.
It's not even far, but
​I can't come.

​He doesn't want you,
​you know.
​I'm not really sure why you believe
he will love you.

​I'm not angry with you.
I miss you.
​I have a dark hole under my clothes where
you should be.

Come back.

I understand you more now,
​I think. I want to
​stop trying to give you away
​to the ones you don't want to
go to.

​I want to promise you,
​but I won't because I know I don't
​trust my own promises.

​I want you to stay with me.
I need you &
I think I like you.

I never used to.
I used to hate you.
I remember.
You were right to leave me,

​But you can't stay with him.
​He's not even holding you.
He just has enough room,
​so you don't bother him &
he doesn't mind you being there.

​& he's too good.
He won't chase you away.
Only ignore you mostly.

​I don't blame him.
​You're not his.
You're mine.

​Please come back.